USUSUALLY I’D BE A 2CM Hawaiian shirt guy with no self-respect at all, I’d not care for the gayness of my body but tomorrow I’m gonna try to build muscle to be able to kill myself I’m that done

I have no hope I have no will to live I have no reason to live I’m gonna go to the gym tomorrow and for the first time in months after the last time I was too weak to lift a pound I will train. I know it won’t matter I know I’m not gonna live long enough to get strong to be able to kill myself. I’m 103 pounds 5’10”. I have a small build. I’m weak, I can’t even walk without wanting to die and now I’m gonna try to go to the gym and kill myself. If I get too weak mine life is going to be short but I’m gonna train for my last days.