My mom and I are having an affair

**Update 8/30: my mom and I are happy together. We're being discrete and our relationship is healthy and fulfilling. We're considering moving to a new state so we can continue our loving relationship without worrying about getting caught.**<br><br><br>**Update 7/26: My mom and I are doing great. We've had our ups and downs, but we're still in love. Our relationship is still strong, and we've load to a new city with fewer residents so we can be more open with our relationship without worrying about social backlash.**<br><br><br>I'm 17M and my mom is 38F. It's been going on for over a month now. I don't know how it happened, but I'm not complaining. I've always thought my mom was attractive, but I never thought it would actually happen. I was raised by my mom and my grandparents after my dad cheated on my mom. I don't know much about my dad, but I'm not really interested, he's not important in my life. I've had numerous relationships in the past, I've even been with 3 girls at once, but they never compared to my mom. There's just something about her that makes my heart pound. I remember how they used to treat us, my friends would see their parents cuddling on the couch, or their moms would tell their dads looks at her like a dirty old man. I wanted that, I wanted the love of my parent, the unconditional love that parents are supposed to have for their children. Instead, my mom acted aloof, standoffish and cold. But she still fed me, still clothed me, and still provided a house for me to live in. When I got to high school, I found out that my friends felt the same way, they wanted the unconditional love of their parents, but a lot of the time, they never got it. <br><br>It was a Friday when I first got the feeling. We went out for drinks, and we were the only ones at the bar. My mom had 2 drinks, I had 3, we were both tipsy. She was a bit unsteady, so I helped her up the stairs. I waited until she changed, and when she came out, I saw her in a way I never had before. I don't know what happened, but I kissed her. She didn't say no, she just let me kiss her. We went to her bed, and we did it. I've never felt so happy in my entire life. I felt like I was home. We've been doing it for over a month now, and it's been the happiest month of my life. We both know it's wrong, but we don't care. I feel like I finally got the love I was searching for, and I'm never gonna let it go.