Dark at night, everything is so muffled, and I'm thinking of her (NSFW)

I'm a 25 F and my brother is 21 M. One night me and my brother decided to take a walk around the neighborhood and end up going to this really big park in our area. It's pretty dark there so we can't see a lot of things but if you find the right spot, you can see the pond and it's so pretty.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>My brother and I were just sitting down on this bench and just talking randomly, and we're both in similar places in life. We both admire a similar band and we both like the same video games. We didn't really fight much as kids and were more friends, but we never hung out much when we got older.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>But lately we've been getting closer and hanging out more, and I guess it's just making me more aware of him. I looked at him at that moment and he had the light of his phone shining on him but the rest of the area around was dark, and I don't know it just hit me how cute he is.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I feel free when I'm with him in a way I don't really feel with a lot people. And I've seen him in the shower, and I've seen his butt in the shower. And everything is so muffled and dark right now, and it's just raining outside and I had the fan on and it's loud. And I'm just laying in bed thinking about his butt and how much I want to touch it and kiss him, and I just don't see how this is going to end well. I just wish I could be attracted to anyone else, but nope.