I just found my long lost sisters

I havent seen them in 12 years. We never had each others numbers. Never spoke.<br><br>Their mom is the one who reached out to me on Facebook and said that theyve both been talking about me lately and they havent stopped thinking about me. Theyre all coming to visit in a few days.<br><br>I havent seen them in 12 years.<br><br>One is 17 and the other is 22. Thats crazy. When i last saw them, they were 5 and 10. <br><br>I dont know how i feel about this. My mom is excited for me. Im not.<br><br>I dont know if i should be telling my boyfriend. Im sure he will flip out.<br><br>I dont know if i even feel anything for them anymore. Im not attracted to them. I dont know if i want to be close to them either. But a part of me is sad that i lost so much time with them. Even though we havent had each other for a decade, theyre my sisters. My sisters. The people i grew up with. The people i was raised with. The people who are connected to me by blood.<br><br>Another part of me will never forget the incest. It was so short. So short lived. I was so young. So naive. I still think about it. It hurt me that it had to end. It hurt me that they left after it did. It hurt me that they never spoke to me again. Not once. Not even to see how i was doing. Nothing.<br><br>I dont know if i want to be hurt again.