Blackpilled 2 years ago and nearly suicidal but I’m better now

Like the title says, I was blackpilled 2 years ago and I’ve been lurking this place for a while. I realise it took me a lot of time to understand and process it all, but I’m glad I am where I am today. <br><br>In the beginning, I was a depressed fetishiser of Asian women who was angry at the world for not granting me the ability to be a Chad. Instead I was a 5’6 ugly and skinny man with acne and a stutter who got cucked by his own gf in a psychotic rage fit. I hated the fact that the hottest girls usually went for tall and hot men. I hated that I had no friends. I hated the fact that im an outcast in this world because of my height and appearance. I was angry at the world and everyone in it. <br><br>I did what most of you guys do - I gamed my lower social circle but ultimately got a few mediocre chicks and got bored and felt empty and shallow. I was also fetishising Asian women and I had a massive crush on an Asian girl in my city which was fueling my depression. I was probably the most insecure guy ever. <br><br>I was stuck in a vicious cycle of fetishising Asian women, gaming them, being bored and then being depressed and lonely. But, slowly I managed to wake up and see what was going on and I started to lift and improve my life. <br><br>I never got a real gf, but I’ve had a massive crush on this one girl in my city which was fueling my depression, but im finally over it. I stopped drinking and I managed to improve my mental health and my friendships. <br><br>I know none of you guys will read this and nearly none of you will relate, but I just want to say that it’s possible to move past the pain and the trauma and the immense insecurity that comes with being blackpilled. This place is not fetishised as it is and it’s not blackpill but a realpill. <br><br>I wouldn’t call myself a blackpilled former incel, but more of a blackpilled normie who is trying to live his life to the fullest.