I’m a 19 year old guy and I am obsessed with a 45 year old married woman.

Throwaway account because this is embarrassing.<br><br>Basically this is a 45 year old woman who works at my part time job. This is a high end retail store in a high end mall for reference. <br><br>I am a 19 year old guy, and I have been working at this job since June 2022. This really started last September, when she was 44 and I was 18. <br><br>I had a huge crush on her since I met her. I just thought she was really really hot. She took me under her wing and taught me how everything works because I was new. She even put her arm around me a few times in front of customers and said “I’m training this young man, and I’m going to make him a star.” <br><br>I think that’s when my infatuation started. I felt like I was this matronly woman’s little pet. I put 110% effort into my work, and I would do anything for her. I’m really good at my job, if I do say so myself. <br><br>She flirts with me shamelessly. She is very touchy feely and she’ll touch my arms and shoulders. She told me I’m “so freaking hot” and she would “totally date me if she were my age.” She even said I could get “any woman he wants”. <br><br>Here’s the bad part…. She’s married. I know her husband’s name, I know what their house looks like from the inside, I know their dog’s name. I know that her husband is a high up executive at a fortune 500 company. <br><br>She told me her and her husband have a sexless marriage. She said that they haven’t had sex in 2 years. She’s told me that she wants to have an affair with someone, because she “needs to have sex again.” <br><br>I am so deeply infatuated with her. I dream about her. I think about her constantly. And I know that she could never actually date me, and if she did, it would be so bad. But I just can’t help how I feel.