So upsetting..

My dad molested me , and I have sex with him a lot because of it. It was the only way I could do it without the pain. It was hard for me to forget that he raped me. I want to add , “When you know its wrong, but you know you’ll never stop...” I’m just a little girl in kindergarten when this happens , and my mom was drunk the whole time. I’m scared to tell people outside the family , and I feel so sorry for him... I really do.<br><br>He’s crying so hard I feel sorry for him, but he can’t get hard now. He’s too sad. He yells and screams at me. He’s so angry. He calls me a monster when he tells me I’m a little girl. The worst part is my mom. She won’t let me do anything and she’s jealous of me? Which is the worst part... She’s jealous of me because he stopped having sex with her. He says he loves her forever, but he’s going to be my husband. I’m going to keep him when my mom dies. “When you know its wrong, but you know you’ll never stop...”<br><br>I’m not mad at my mom , I love my husband even more than her. It helps that he loves me so much. He’s so happy all the time , and I’m stuck with my mom. He’s so mean to her. I just hope she doesn’t think I’m the one who ruined her life. I love her so much. And you know what ? My dad is right. I am a little girl. I’m little and I’m a little girl. I love my mom , and my husband isn’t my dad. I’m a girl. I’m a little girl.