The most blackpilled moment for me was when I realized that I hated myself so much that I didn't even give a shit whether I lived or died anymore, and that I couldn't hate myself more than society hated me anyways, so not having to live among people would be a good thing anyways.

It was a long time ago, and I had a lot of minor breakdowns after that, but it was the point where I realized that I literally had nothing left to lose, and that I'd never have anything to lose no matter how hard I tried. I hate myself, nobody likes me, I have no friends or family, and everyone would be better off without me. <br><br>The black pill is honestly the most comforting pill. I'm no longer afraid of death, I have nothing to lose, and I have nothing left to fear. I can't imagine how it is living to win when you have so much to lose...