I’m not going to end it, but man I’m exhausted

Pretty much the title. I’m just so tired. I still battle anxiety and depression. I’m tired of feeling like I have to compete to be loved when a fucking moron with a six-pack gets it without putting any effort. I’m tired of being a loser. I’m tired of everyone saying I’m great and lovable but still being alone. I’m also tired of feeling like a black-pilled loser because I’m not going to kill myself. I’ve been to therapy, and I even feel like I’m getting better. It’s just the rejection and loneliness that gets me. It feels like I am worthless and I’m just deluding myself with this hope that things will get better. Fuck